ok, so from besides boston, we have jill's birthday party tonight which i am going to make a guest apperance at and chris's house party which i hope to bump into goodvibe at.

goodvibe is a girl i met that is not only pretty attractive, but has a cool vibe.


- posted by Herb @ 8:22 AM

 
so current situations. i'm going to skip over a bunch of first dates that i went on during my time of grief from my "ex". and enter the present.

a girl has entered my life again from my past. i don't know how we found each other again, but this time i'm not going to let us drift apart again. she is an amazing young woman, and i would really like to see if there could be something between us. we have a cool friendship and i care about her. we will call her boston.

and actually, i don't have too much to say about boston right now. except that she has been in my head for years, from the first day we met. i don't know if anything more would ever happen to us. if it does, it does. i'm going to let life run a natural course with her and i. (i did not meet her in boston, it just a good codename. if she happens to read this, i just hope she smiles and knows that i care for her)

fuck me, i am so in touch with my emtions.
- posted by Herb @ 8:15 AM

 
i find i have to be in the right frame of mind to discuss my thoughts. i'm in that mood today. so let's start with either a) my dating adventures, or b) my thoughts on life currently. don't be confused if it ends up being the same thing.

today's topic, ex-girlfriends.

for some reason, which has something to do with my ego obivously, i have never considered, that i, had ex-girlfriends.sure i have had relationships, but i've never been one to say, hey, there's my ex-girlfriend. or, "bumped into my ex last night" just hasn't been me. i hear people talk about exs all the time like currency. to the point where i even loss track of which ex someone is making a reference to. i thought poeple should have just one ex at a time. but then again, this ex thing is new to me. but not really. maybe, the ex thing is only notiable because usually, by some weird fate of nature (or i'm just a punk), i'm the one leaving the relationship. the dumper not the dumpee. and since i noticed an ex, which i bumped into last night, it's because, yes, i was the dumpee. mr heart broken. given my college love left me. but that was bond to happen. i should have left her way earlier, but i thought there was something there. then I new we would both be leaving for different cities once we left college and she was unstable (ok, shes not, but a little) and it would be easier if she did it. it was how my college love did it that caught me by suprise. here i thought we would meet for coffee and she would have some great excuse to why it was over when it was obvious she needed some lovin and i lived 6 hours away. but no, she did it while i was on layover in the st. louis airport, on the freakin' phone.

but what do you do but go home and get high and mediate the day and night away on top of a lonely green hill top. at least i didn't write any cheesy broken hearted poetry. yes, you should thank me for that. but even then, didn't really say i had an ex. ex was to harsh for her.

and not that the last girl i dated needs any type of harsh overtones to me calling her ex. because, as stated in the manual of love and broken hearts we didn't date long enough for her to be a true ex. it's just that, i think for the first time, i lost it with a girl. i was into her and it didn't work out. first time for everything. and yes, now i am stronger for it and she did show me some great things in life during a time of difficultly in mine and i have nothing but the best wishes for her, and one freakin' question, why didn't it work out?

oh well, it was great sex at least, in my humble opinion. great sex= having a girl complain that she has gotten of to many times while i havn't once. talk about control. hello nurse.

so now i am single again, have been for a couple of months and starting to have first dates again. with all the back ground out of the way i think we can start dicussing current dates and dating situations. just for quick review,

1) current ex, i fell for hard. heart broken. oh well. at least i know i am cable of love. she was an awesome person, and could be the one that got away.

- posted by Herb @ 8:06 AM

 
i've forgotten what i've read, i've forgotten what i've said
- posted by Herb @ 3:13 PM

 
i know i am suppose to try, to be that type of guy, who helps you wear your plastic smile.
- posted by Herb @ 11:04 AM