more sickness

- posted by Herb @ 9:40 AM

 
ahh. i'm sick today. but i think i have something to say.
- posted by Herb @ 7:28 AM

 
back in minneapolis. wahoo. as relaxed as i got, minneapolis has a fun way o giving me a different reality check. i know because of being on the softball field... i can still feel this ill vibe i have. i know, i;m making too much out of this. so yea, i should chat about boston

but that's really second rate right now in my thoughts. someone wrote me an email today, and i believe the qutoe was, "walked into a minneapolis hornets nest" or something to that effect. i don't think i walked into a hornet nest, but i did walk into something. and i didn' think i would think that much about it, but i do.

something is not right. someone is in a situation that hurts me to think about, and i don't know what to do, but doing nothing is not the right answer. and this is my blog. i am honest here.

she... she needs
she needs to travel with... just friends. or even alone. i want her to see the world. having a base here cool, but i want her to go where ever she wants. to steal an overused metaphore, she's not a bird to be caged. she would be a cool person to know and experience some of the world with. well, i mean, like jack and i are going to amsterdam together, with her it would be more.. brussels.

ok, yeah, was getting a little wrapped up there and should probably explain. it's this girl i met and just wanted to get to know. she's cool. and i still hope i can get to know her. if i did get to know her and at sometime things would take a different direction, i don't know. it's not what i was worried about. so i hope i still can befriend her. she's cool. i'm sure there will be more to this, stayed tune.

i think i am finally starting a book/novel. i think my waiting/learning is well underway enough to maybe start writing again. or, actually to start really writing in the first place. so i have this book idea. i feel it. i need to read a couple more authors to get a good sense of the 'novel'. but i'm closer. i should probably start writing short stories again to brush up on my prose.

i'll see if i can't post something here soon.

and i'll chat about boston soon..
- posted by Herb @ 9:25 PM

 
i'm in NYC. i like NYC. it gives perspective. and a little reality check. ok, i'll explain.

in nyc, people are people. everybody is trying to b e somebody in there own way here. and coming here it serves as as good mirror for myself. it's help me see myself to understand myself.... ladda ladadda whatever. basically it chills me out a little. i fell comfortable just being me. i don't know, minneapolis had been wearning on me. i was getting caught up in an attitude. or getting caught up in an idea of what minneapolis wanted me to be, and not being myself.

i know, usually you come here and read about possible women adventures. well, i think they might be tapering off a little bit. if i can't enjoy myself in minneapolis and be me, then how can i enjoy it with some else?

and i have met a girl who right now i would just like to get to know. and i think that's good. ever since i was laid off and this girl broke my heart, i have been all over the place. i need to get back to my quest. i am tribal and need to follow it. i know, that makes no sense. i'll update it more when i get back. let's just say i really needed to relax and NYC was good for me.

i'll chat more about boston as well.
- posted by Herb @ 9:27 AM